i know i havent posted on my blog in a really long time, but i’m kinda bummed/pissed at computers and websites right now, namely, mine.
i guess there was a pretty major hardware failure at the datacenter that host the machine that hosts the website you’re looking at right now. it wiped out eveything that was posted on the blog and the forum after april 5th.
this really sucks, because i had just written a hugely long post about meeting my real dad for the first time on the 7th. (i didn’t meet him on the 7th, i wrote about it on the 7th)
so anyway… to breifly recap that last post… (and for those of you who didn’t know, recap is short for recapitulate… just some interesting information for ya)
so, we had a pretty good party at my house on the 3rd, which went pretty well (didn’t get a lot of pictures though, sorry) threw down my new track, had some drinks, etc. pretty normal party. then on sun, the day after the party, we (my girl and i) went to one of my new aunt’s and uncle’s house to hang out and have a bbq, cuz it was my aunt’s birthday on the 4th. as i walk into the backyard and get introduced, an older woman stands up and says, “so you’re my grandson”… yeah, that floored me for about 10 minutes.
she was acting just like any other grandmother would, hugging me, kissing my cheek, etc. except that i have never met this woman in my life, and it was a little wierd. so we have lunch/dinner (amazingly good ribs), and i go inside to chill for a bit, cuz i had just met a new grandmother, new cousin, new aunt, and was feeling a little awkward. after hangin out inside for a half hour or so, i walk back outside, and just as i did, a man i’ve only seen in pictures walks around the corner of the house…
{insert dead silence with intermittent pounding heart beats here}
i try and play it off like i didnt see him, and sit down on the bench outside. as i’m lookin over to get a better look, i make eye contact with him, because he was staring right at me. it was too late, i couldn’t play it off anymore, i had to do something. so i stand up to walk over to him and everybody who was in the backyard, knowing the situation, stops talking and watches me walk over… no pressure.
so… what do you say in a situation like that? “hi, i’m benjam”? i mean, he already knows who i am, i know who he is, what do you say?
so i walked over, all eyes burning a hole in my back, and say “hi, nice to meet you, wierd and unexpected, but nice” and sit down next to him. we kinda have an uncomfortable silence for a bit, which was even more so, because the whole party was having it with us, and then my mom breaks it by asking him a question… thanks, mom.
so we make small talk for a little bit and then it’s time for us to leave, cuz i don’t think i could have handled meeting anymore new relatives. so we leave.
and thats about all that was in that post. it was a little longer and maybe a little more in depth, but you get the idea, it still kinda sucks that it was lost.
but anywho… ya’ll have fun, and don’t crash your comp reading this.
plur, l8