Um, yeah, this pretty much still sucks.
The profound sadness of losing your mom is very enduring.
The sudden loss of Mom never seems to get any easier. The reality never quite sets in deep enough to the point that I don’t think there is someway to go back and make it not so. Since I have been living back at home and see her and our childhood everywhere, she is always on my mind and her lack of presence is very heavy. On top of the grieving, I have also been really sick from a terrible cold and the pregnancy and my heart just yells for her to come comfort me the only way a mom knows how. I feel like a child again with a boo-boo that I want my mommy to kiss better. The things she is missing from watching Skye toddle around the house just makes the sadness more intense. I find myself clinging to Skye more and the mother-daughter love that I am now without, from my one and only Mom. I too toddle around the house, staring at walls and unable to do anything productive at all. For some reason, it’s very difficult to reach-out, call, or email people back, but I appreciate everyone that has sent condolences.
Maybe they get wifi where she is and she knows how much we completely, absolutely and whole-heartedly love and miss her.
Chelsea, I am so sorry that you have to go through this pain. It is my greatest fear losing my parents and I am sure at a young age makes it even harder. You will see her again. Just remember that.
Oh Chelsea, I am so sorry for your sadness. I can only imagine the emptiness you feel and my heart aches for you. Your mom surely is watching over you and sending heavenly hugs and kisses your way and I’m certain she must be watching Skye, because how could she not? I know your mom’s love continues for you and your family. I am so sorry you have to face this trial at such a happy time in your life, but I guess it’s never a good time for goodbyes. Our thoughts are with you.
She knows Chels, she knows.
Chels, your mom will always be with you. Her love created you and will always be a part of you. I miss you and wish I could be there for you. LOVE you.
Chelsea I am so sorry to hear about your Mom… Hope you guys are hanging in there! WHen did you move back home?