“i told you so” just doesn’t sound strong enough…

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the spark of life

I’m not a religious person. I’m not a full blown God-hating atheist, I’m more of an agnostic with atheistic tendencies. Or rather…  I’m a scientist, and due to the lack of any kind of scientific proof of God’s existence, I tend not to subscribe to any religious beliefs. But I digress. And how can I digress before I even started making my point…

Anywho…

There are several mysteries of the Universe that people often attribute to God, and based on your belief system, you may lean more one way or the other. Some of those beliefs are creation vs. evolution, the creation of the earth and the heavens (I’m talking of outer space, not the other kind of Heaven), what happened before the big bang, and where did life come from…

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things nobody tells you when you have a baby, but should

here are a few things I’ve discovered because of my little one, that I didn’t understand before. some of them probably make sense, and some of them you’ve probably heard before, but you don’t really understand them until you have a baby yourself.

  1. giving birth is traumatic for everybody (especially the father, and orders of magnitude more so if it’s your first one (or so it seems))
  2. always put a clean diaper underneath the dirty one BEFORE you open it
  3. immobile babies are WAAAAY better easier than mobile ones
  4. teething sucks
  5. shot day sucks
  6. constipation sucks
  7. vacuums suck, and are a necessity (sorry, had to do it =) )
  8. nothing smells worse than day old formula… except for maybe day old diapers.
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train of thought

I was taking the trash out–and really what better place to have an epiphany than near the dumpster–when I walked through our parking spot, which was void of the RAV. A car I have loved owning, mainly because of it’s reliability. Not seeing it in the stall threw me fast forward into the realm of all things Slovak and the reality of this, some would say, bizarro move we are making. Knots of excitement and nerves immediately tied up in my stomach. I asked myself, again, “why are we moving?”  Was I unhappy about something?  Was I running away from something, running towards something?  I then contemplated what in my life was of discontent. What in my life was I unhappy about?

The truth ran me over in the parking lot: nothing.

Holy hell, nothing!?! really!?!

I feel like my entire life I have been striving to be happy with what I have now, this moment. There has always been something that was going to make me happy, when I finally got it. Something was always standing in my way of real happiness, some struggle or inner unrest that kept me from being at peace. Now though, now, there is nothing in front of me, nothing but icing on the cake. I felt like I was moving through the thought of some watered down version of ascension or enlightenment, since this is not what I imagined it would feel like, in the cold, near the dumpster. The idea of ascension, of course, made me think of Stargate SG-1 (hey, I’m deep, what can I say?).  I thought, that was a good show, I miss that show. Aha! Something I wanted, more episodes of a sci-fi TV show. Go figure!

teething

so the little one is super ornery tonight, and was screaming bloody murder while I got her undressed for the evening ritual (bottle, bath, book, bed).  I was planning on skipping the first three and putting her straight in her jammies, and getting her to sleep as soon as possible, but chels said that I should give her a bath, that it might soothe her. it made a little bit of sense, so I told chelsea to start a bath, and finished undressing skye. I put her in the bath, and she was calm for only a moment before she started screaming again.

I don’t know what made me do it, but I looked in her mouth at her bottom gums, and noticed something that was different from all of the other times I checked when chelsea cried “teething”…  there was a discoloration, in a straight line, in the middle of her gums, about where one of her bottom teeth would be, if she had any. It was sunk in a bit, and kinda grayish, like there was a tooth just below the surface.

Holy crap…  she’s teething.

despite what I’ve said before about how I don’t want her to get teeth because it will change how she looks and she won’t be the same…  I’m kinda excited that she is teething getting teeth (not so much excited for the teething part of it).

I don’t know why, but when I saw that, I immediately saw her in a different light, she is no longer a baby, she is a little girl.

I just wish it didn’t have to happen on my watch…